Weightlessness

Sometimes, it's easier to never say "hello" than it is
to have to say "goodbye."
And I am tired.
Tired of guarding my heart
            - against any possible disappointment, once again.
Tired of weighing consequences,
                         - and I know my scales are weighted.
Tired of turning away from people I LOVE
                 because it is just hard to know they will be far away soon.

And I am grateful.
Grateful to a God of second (and third and fourth and umpteenth) chances...
Who understands my numbness...
and offers Himself and His amazing

     open -armed and
     open -hearted and
     willing to hurt and
      willing to be rejected and
        willing to lose
          without conditions...

             ...agape love

as a solution.

I John 4:18 - 19
"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. We love because he first loved us."