to have to say "goodbye."
And I am tired.
Tired of guarding my heart
- against any possible disappointment, once again.
Tired of weighing consequences,
- and I know my scales are weighted.
Tired of turning away from people I LOVE
because it is just hard to know they will be far away soon.
And I am grateful.
Grateful to a God of second (and third and fourth and umpteenth) chances...
Who understands my numbness...
and offers Himself and His amazing
open -armed and
open -hearted and
willing to hurt and
willing to be rejected and
willing to lose
as a solution.
I John 4:18 - 19
"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. We love because he first loved us."